Okay so this post isn\u2019t really a story, just an update. And since I\u2019ve already used the words\/phrases \u201ctrudgery,\u201d \u201ccrashing and burning,\u201d \u201cfrustration,\u201d \u201cups and downs,\u201d \u201chaving nothing left,\u201d and \u201cWTAF?\u201d I don\u2019t think that there are many ways left to describe the complete and utter defeat I feel at this time. My creativity in coming up with a unique and interesting title is drained; thus, this is a story\u2026 but not really. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
This past week has been a low one. Jace and Kiley dumped us, hurting us badly in the process. We got to meet Dylan, which was actually great; but I\u2019m feeling very unhopeful that it’s going to work out because of the complications on his side of things. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dylan is so many of the things I want, and I can\u2019t deny the incredible chemistry between us. When we met, we played some games and then watched TV, and sitting on the couch next to him was stupidly exciting. The way he touched me wasn\u2019t sexual, but somehow it was absolutely intoxicating. He stroked my hand, my leg, my arm, and occasionally my cheek. His touch was electrifying and literally had me panting. Like\u2026 what the fuck?! This happens so rarely to me that I truly savor it when it does. Kissing him was fantastic. Bending my rules about not \u201cplaying\u201d on the first date was inevitable. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nevertheless, there are complicated dynamics at play with him and his partner, and I have a hard time seeing that suddenly getting better. I can\u2019t afford to let myself truly hope that this will last. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
We were going to meet Arlo tonight, but he hasn\u2019t answered my messages in three days, so I am making the educated assumption that he\u2019s ghosting. Regardless, I see very few situations in which I would overlook his inconsistent communication, so even if he does reach out about meeting tonight, I don\u2019t think I would want to.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m back on Feeld, the ENM (ethical non-monogamy) dating app I use. I have a few conversations going. I don\u2019t feel extremely hopeful about any of them, only mildly hopeful about two. I do have plans next week for us to meet up with a guy I\u2019ve been talking to for a while (very slowly and sporadically). <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I also hope to schedule something with Kameron for next week. Kameron is still a good connection for me, but I do think his schedule might not have room for us, and that would make it difficult to build a meaningful relationship.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We\u2019ve still been seeing Gerry regularly. He\u2019s become a part of our lives that I really enjoy. When we get to see Nadine as well, it\u2019s even more special. Honestly, our connection with them is the only really good thing in our poly lives right now. It\u2019s easy, and lovely, and feels very natural. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
And now for a quick roundup of our other minor partners.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Richard has been messaging us regularly to check in, and remind us that he\u2019s still interested. However, scheduling has been an issue and I wouldn\u2019t be surprised if our relationship with him fades away soon. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Wilbur has had a lot going on and our communication has been radio silence; I can\u2019t imagine that our relationship with him is going anywhere fast. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dakota is also incredibly busy and while he may actually be genuinely interested in us, I don\u2019t feel confident we\u2019ll get to see him again. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
That\u2019s it, that\u2019s all we\u2019ve got going on. It\u2019s dreary, y\u2019all. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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