As of today, here is my relationship with Romeo in numbers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Today, I think\u2026 yes, I think something has changed, in a good way.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I think<\/em> I am no longer afraid of losing Romeo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yes, I will always have that small fear in the back of my mind which probably always exists for anyone who loves someone else dearly\u2014the fear that something outside of anyone\u2019s control will take you away from each other.<\/p>\n\n\n\n But as far as my fear of him changing his mind about me, losing interest, becoming another one of those guys who have broken my heart when I didn\u2019t expect it\u2026 No. I don\u2019t fear that anymore.<\/p>\n\n\n\n There\u2019s simply too much evidence at this point to logically or even emotionally think that\u2019s a possibility. There are things people can say and not mean them. There are some really good actors in the world, too. There are even people who lie to themselves<\/em> and then perpetuate those lies to others, only to turn around and realize it was never really true.<\/p>\n\n\n\n But there are some things that I really believe can\u2019t be faked. The love I see in Romeo\u2019s eyes. The expressions I\u2019ve seen on his face. The emotion he\u2019s shown me that just simply can\u2019t be mistaken for anything but truly and deeply genuine. Not to mention the amount of time, energy, and feelings he has put into our relationship in such a short amount of time. If this isn\u2019t real, then honestly, nothing is. <\/p>\n\n\n\n And as a matter of fact, now that I\u2019m writing that, it makes so much sense. Nothing has felt completely real in my life since I met him. I\u2019ve felt oddly disconnected from reality, like I\u2019m in a dream or high or something. But it totally makes sense when I put it this way. If he\u2019s not real, nothing is. So, since my mind has been unable to accept that he\u2019s real, that this love <\/em>is real, it\u2019s also been unable to accept that reality even is a thing anymore. Romeo came in and just turned my life upside down, and it\u2019s taken me a little while to adjust.<\/p>\n\n\n\n But here I am, now. I\u2019m accepting that Romeo is the real deal. He\u2019s real, our love is real, and this really is my life now. I\u2019m not going to wake up to find it was all a dream. I\u2019m not going to look back on this time months and years from now and think \u201cwow, what a rollercoaster\u2014too bad it ended in tragedy.\u201d Nope. This is not going anywhere. This love is here to stay. While Romeo and Juliet may be a tragic play, our love resembles it only in the absurdly dramatic, lightning speed at which we fell in love, and the way we continue to romance the crap out of each other with all that we have.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Maybe this last time I saw him was the turning point. I\u2019ve been sick with a cold for the past several days, and wasn\u2019t able to see him on the weekend as a result. I\u2019m still fighting it, and yesterday he decided to come over and see me regardless. He brought me homemade soup and cuddles, and he didn\u2019t flinch at my nasty coughing or cringe at my sad, scratchy voice. Nope. He just came, and he took care of me. He decided to love me in sickness and in health, as he put it. Like I said, Romeo is the real fucking deal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Both of us continually marvel at how lucky we are to have found each other. Every single day we express how much we love each other and how we can\u2019t get enough. We talk about how excited we are about the future together. Our words are just half of the equation though\u2014our actions speak even louder. The time we make to spend together, the distance we travel on a regular basis, the amount of energy we put into expressing and documenting our love story. It\u2019s all just off the charts and utterly ridiculous. This is a love we will both hold onto, fight for, and never let go.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I am Romeo\u2019s and he is mine. This is the new reality. And I am no longer afraid.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cAnd I don’t know how it gets better than this. -Taylor Swift, \u201cFearless\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" As of today, here is my relationship with Romeo in numbers. 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You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n