Author: admin

Since my last post, things have changed significantly for me yet again. Fortunately, this time instead of having my heart broken or my mind fucked with or my trust eroded, something really good has happened in my poly journey. And despite all of my hesitation and doubt, this time I know in my heart that… Continue reading This is a story of playing for keeps.

These past few months have been a very enlightening experience. For one thing, I’ve discovered that less than 1% of people on online dating platforms are actually decent humans. This isn’t a scientific number, however based on the number of people I’ve connected with in proportion to the number that hasn’t ended with my mistreatment…… Continue reading This is the story of an end and a beginning.

Before I share my latest misadventure, I have another Bottom of the Barrel guy to put on blast.  This guy, who I will simply refer to as “K,” started off incredibly strong. We talked over the course of a few days and he put so much effort into our conversation that I was quite honestly… Continue reading This is a story about giving an undeserved second chance. 

For this post, I have a new Bottom of the Barrel guy to share with everyone. This one is very… confusing, to me.  I’m going to call him Dylan 2 because he has the same real name as Dylan and frankly he doesn’t deserve his own pseudonym. So Dylan 2 connected with me on Feeld… Continue reading This is a story of finding light at the end of the tunnel.

Hot off the heels of my last post, I bring to you this special post about my online dating process! And yes, I need a process. Poly is hard. Online dating is hard. Online dating as a poly person is insanity. And yet, I persist. Truth be told, as frustrating as it can be, it’s also… Continue reading This is a story about my dating process.

Okay so this post isn’t really a story, just an update. And since I’ve already used the words/phrases “trudgery,” “crashing and burning,” “frustration,” “ups and downs,” “having nothing left,” and “WTAF?” I don’t think that there are many ways left to describe the complete and utter defeat I feel at this time. My creativity in… Continue reading This is a story… but not really.

Yesterday was a day, guys.  You may or may not recall Jace and Kiley, who were our longest standing poly connections. They’re a couple we met about four months ago and have been seeing regularly ever since. While I never really felt fiery passion with them, I did feel a great deal of affection. Truth… Continue reading This is a story of WTAF?

This weekend was eventful. Romeo and I had a super fun date night with our platonic friends, Oliver and Shelby. (If you’re new or you forgot, Oliver is the guy who I had a huge crush on but he and Shelby are platonic so I had to squash that).  Afterwards, as we were getting ready… Continue reading This is a story about new and unexpected feelings.

I was right about Jamey, let’s just start with that. We’re done. He was full of shit.  In fact… yes, I think he just might be worthy of being the featured Bottom of the Barrel connection for this post!  The last thing I wrote about Jamey was that our sexual encounter was a bit disappointing… Continue reading This is a story about moving right along.

I feel shattered, y’all. I feel like the biggest idiot imaginable, like I can never trust anyone ever again, including myself. I feel embarrassed and hopeless. Nothing has happened, really. But I know what is going to happen. I can see the warning signs already. I am almost never wrong about these things.  Jamey came… Continue reading This is a story of having nothing left.