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This weekend was eventful. Romeo and I had a super fun date night with our platonic friends, Oliver and Shelby. (If you’re new or you forgot, Oliver is the guy who I had a huge crush on but he and Shelby are platonic so I had to squash that).  Afterwards, as we were getting ready… Continue reading This is a story about new and unexpected feelings.

I was right about Jamey, let’s just start with that. We’re done. He was full of shit.  In fact… yes, I think he just might be worthy of being the featured Bottom of the Barrel connection for this post!  The last thing I wrote about Jamey was that our sexual encounter was a bit disappointing… Continue reading This is a story about moving right along.

I feel shattered, y’all. I feel like the biggest idiot imaginable, like I can never trust anyone ever again, including myself. I feel embarrassed and hopeless. Nothing has happened, really. But I know what is going to happen. I can see the warning signs already. I am almost never wrong about these things.  Jamey came… Continue reading This is a story of having nothing left.

The past few days have been strangely transformative. Over the last month or so, I’ve gone from ecstatic to miserable, then back again… and again and again. You may have noticed. 😂 But this feels different.  Yeah, I know, I know. I’ve said that before. Poly be that way sometimes! Yet, I noticed a very… Continue reading This is a story of pieces falling into place. 

Welcome to my second Bottom of the Barrel post! I have other stuff to write about in this post, other than the B.O.B. guy… but this is a good one let me tell you. (By “good,” of course, I mean appalling.)  It is my greatest pleasure to introduce you to Scott. We had an incredible… Continue reading This is a story about a total perv.

A few days ago I posted about a new guy I was excited about, who I called Tucker. I was excited because he seemed really awesome, but I was also very hesitant to trust it before I had more evidence to support that trust. As it turns out, that was a good instinct. After our… Continue reading This is a story of being right when I really wanted to be wrong. 

My mind hurts.  I currently find myself in a very exhilarating moment of a rollercoaster ride, and I’m real uncertain about where it’s headed. If something is too good to be true, it probably is. Right? My mind hurts because like… the whiplash is getting me bad right now. I feel like I’m reading a… Continue reading This is a story of a mindfuck.

I’ve been posting a lot of updates recently, because my poly-life has been very busy. The next couple of weeks are looking like they’re going to continue at this same pace, so I may have a lot of posts continuing to come out– we shall see!  Yesterday was a low day for me. The day… Continue reading This is a story about an instacrush.

Welcome to my new series, The Bottom of the Barrel! I will be using this series to feature my lowest quality conversations or connections, at the beginning of each post, for our mutual entertainment. For our very first B.o.B., I would like to present “BJ.”  BJ and I both “liked” each other on Feeld. He… Continue reading This is a story of trudgery.

I’ve made a lot of realizations today. I’m not doing great. I’ve lost my hope that I will find what I want in poly. Worse, I’ve lost my hope that I will find what I want in life.  I think that polyamory is an outlet for me, a way to attempt to satisfy a hunger.… Continue reading This is a story of crashing and burning.