This is a story of frustration.

Polyamory and ENM can be many things. It can be exciting, scary, confusing, overwhelming, joyful, heartbreaking, and invigorating. Sometimes, it can even be boring. But this go-around, I am finding that the primary feeling I am experiencing is frustration.  I am poly-frustrated, y’all.  I think one factor going into this is the increased complexity of… Continue reading This is a story of frustration.

Acceptance of loss.

I was talking about polyamory the other day with my partner, Romeo. We were discussing the things we liked about it, and the things we didn’t. We talked about the fact that we are no longer polyamorous, and the reality of how that choice is still and will probably always be challenging for me.  In… Continue reading Acceptance of loss.

Reasons to stay.

Since my last post, things have gotten better with Romeo. Our relationship has continued to grow stronger, and Romeo has worked hard at his own growth as a partner. Several months ago, I told him about an attitude I try to embrace as a partner myself, which is that every day I try to give… Continue reading Reasons to stay.

Six months later.

It’s been five months since my last post. It’s been six months since I had to make the choice between my partner and polyamory, because he decided he couldn’t be with me anymore if we weren’t monogamous. I chose to stay with him and commit to a life with him as my only partner. Looking… Continue reading Six months later.

To Poly or Not to Poly

The past few weeks have been a wild roller-coaster. Buckle up, because this is going to be a long one. (Like, seriously long.) Where do I start? It all began when Romeo brought up polyamory. Throughout our relationship, we have casually discussed our choice to be monogamous, at least for a season, and the possibility… Continue reading To Poly or Not to Poly

Are We Out of the Woods Yet?

As of yesterday, Romeo and I have been together for seven months and cohabitating for one. We’ve seen each other every day and spent every night together for over two months. I can confidently say that our NRE or “new relationship energy” stage is over and we’ve settled into our new normal together. I’ve been… Continue reading Are We Out of the Woods Yet?

Marry Me, Romeo

It’s been a while since I’ve posted on here. Life has been busy, and changing very quickly in big ways. Romeo and I have been together for over five months now, and we are about to become nesting partners. I moved out of my house where I lived with my husband in January, and got… Continue reading Marry Me, Romeo