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I’ve been posting a lot of updates recently, because my poly-life has been very busy. The next couple of weeks are looking like they’re going to continue at this same pace, so I may have a lot of posts continuing to come out– we shall see!  Yesterday was a low day for me. The day… Continue reading This is a story about an instacrush.

Welcome to my new series, The Bottom of the Barrel! I will be using this series to feature my lowest quality conversations or connections, at the beginning of each post, for our mutual entertainment. For our very first B.o.B., I would like to present “BJ.”  BJ and I both “liked” each other on Feeld. He… Continue reading This is a story of trudgery.

I’ve made a lot of realizations today. I’m not doing great. I’ve lost my hope that I will find what I want in poly. Worse, I’ve lost my hope that I will find what I want in life.  I think that polyamory is an outlet for me, a way to attempt to satisfy a hunger.… Continue reading This is a story of crashing and burning.

*Disclaimer: I am usually fairly discreet about explicit details, but I am more descriptive in this post. If you can’t handle that, I suggest you don’t read it! I recently had a very interesting night. It definitely will be remembered as one of my sluttiest nights, but it wasn’t all fun and games. By the… Continue reading This is a story of Jekyll and Hyde.

It’s time for a poly update! Jace and Kiley are still our #1 couple. We have continued to develop a caring, fun, and consistent relationship with them. We’ve stayed over at their place a couple of times, had platonic hangouts, finally went out together in public, and even went grocery shopping together. Those little things… Continue reading This is an update.

Romeo and I have now been polyamorous (again) for over two months, although it feels like much longer. There have already been some fun times, and some AMAZING times, along with a good deal of disappointment and frustration.  We have met up with six couples: Jackson and Norah, Jace and Kiley, Nick and Alison, Eli… Continue reading This is a story of ups and downs.

Polyamory and ENM can be many things. It can be exciting, scary, confusing, overwhelming, joyful, heartbreaking, and invigorating. Sometimes, it can even be boring. But this go-around, I am finding that the primary feeling I am experiencing is frustration.  I am poly-frustrated, y’all.  I think one factor going into this is the increased complexity of… Continue reading This is a story of frustration.

The decision to re-open our marriage is officially real now. We’ve had our first adventure(s) and boy do I feel alive! This is what I’ve been too afraid to hope for for the past two years, and now it’s actually happening. I honestly don’t even have the words to describe how happy I am right… Continue reading This is a story of new beginnings. 

Here we go again. My partner Romeo and I are trying to be ENM again. That’s ethically non-monogamous, if you didn’t know.  What on Earth would possess me to open this can of worms again? It’s a good question.  The last time we went down this road was a little over two years ago, and… Continue reading This is a story about a tiger.

I was talking about polyamory the other day with my partner, Romeo. We were discussing the things we liked about it, and the things we didn’t. We talked about the fact that we are no longer polyamorous, and the reality of how that choice is still and will probably always be challenging for me.  In… Continue reading Acceptance of loss.