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A few days ago I posted about a new guy I was excited about, who I called Tucker. I was excited because he seemed really awesome, but I was also very hesitant to trust it before I had more evidence to support that trust. As it turns out, that was a good instinct. After our… Continue reading This is a story of being right when I really wanted to be wrong. 

My mind hurts.  I currently find myself in a very exhilarating moment of a rollercoaster ride, and I’m real uncertain about where it’s headed. If something is too good to be true, it probably is. Right? My mind hurts because like… the whiplash is getting me bad right now. I feel like I’m reading a… Continue reading This is a story of a mindfuck.

I’ve been posting a lot of updates recently, because my poly-life has been very busy. The next couple of weeks are looking like they’re going to continue at this same pace, so I may have a lot of posts continuing to come out– we shall see!  Yesterday was a low day for me. The day… Continue reading This is a story about an instacrush.

Welcome to my new series, The Bottom of the Barrel! I will be using this series to feature my lowest quality conversations or connections, at the beginning of each post, for our mutual entertainment. For our very first B.o.B., I would like to present “BJ.”  BJ and I both “liked” each other on Feeld. He… Continue reading This is a story of trudgery.

I’ve made a lot of realizations today. I’m not doing great. I’ve lost my hope that I will find what I want in poly. Worse, I’ve lost my hope that I will find what I want in life.  I think that polyamory is an outlet for me, a way to attempt to satisfy a hunger.… Continue reading This is a story of crashing and burning.

*Disclaimer: I am usually fairly discreet about explicit details, but I am more descriptive in this post. If you can’t handle that, I suggest you don’t read it! I recently had a very interesting night. It definitely will be remembered as one of my sluttiest nights, but it wasn’t all fun and games. By the… Continue reading This is a story of Jekyll and Hyde.

It’s time for a poly update! Jace and Kiley are still our #1 couple. We have continued to develop a caring, fun, and consistent relationship with them. We’ve stayed over at their place a couple of times, had platonic hangouts, finally went out together in public, and even went grocery shopping together. Those little things… Continue reading This is an update.

Romeo and I have now been polyamorous (again) for over two months, although it feels like much longer. There have already been some fun times, and some AMAZING times, along with a good deal of disappointment and frustration.  We have met up with six couples: Jackson and Norah, Jace and Kiley, Nick and Alison, Eli… Continue reading This is a story of ups and downs.

Polyamory and ENM can be many things. It can be exciting, scary, confusing, overwhelming, joyful, heartbreaking, and invigorating. Sometimes, it can even be boring. But this go-around, I am finding that the primary feeling I am experiencing is frustration.  I am poly-frustrated, y’all.  I think one factor going into this is the increased complexity of… Continue reading This is a story of frustration.

The decision to re-open our marriage is officially real now. We’ve had our first adventure(s) and boy do I feel alive! This is what I’ve been too afraid to hope for for the past two years, and now it’s actually happening. I honestly don’t even have the words to describe how happy I am right… Continue reading This is a story of new beginnings.